Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in barneysmyidol's LiveJournal:

Monday, November 22nd, 2004
12:44 pm	blahhhhh Yo, I'll tell you what I want,what I really really want, So tell me what you want, what you really really want, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want, So tell mewhat you want, what you really really want, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really really really wanna zigazig ah If you want my future forget my past, If you wanna get with me better make it fast, Now don't go wasting my precious time, Get your act together we could be just fine I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want, So tell me what you want, what you really really want, Iwanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really really really wanna zigazig ah If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends, Make it last forever friendship never ends, If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give, Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is What do you think about that now you know how I feel, Say you can handle my love are you for real, I won't be hasty, I'll give you a try If youreally bug me then I'll say goodbye awww man I absolutly adore the Spice Girls! Wow its been like forever since Ive written in one of these things. Nothing really new wif me. Sooo Soooooo glad that we only have school two days this week, although im not in school today so I only have tomorrow, if I wanna even go to school. Who knows. Im excited for Thanksgiving :) I love turkey and stuffing and all the good food. Thanksgiving is the only day of the year that I have an excuse to eat alot and get fat and no one can say anything to me hehe. This weekend was pretty good. I didn't really do much of anything. Well actually I did, it was just nothing perductive. Friday I stayed home and chilled out with my aunt. Then Saturday Kyle came over and we went with my mommy and Lucy to my nanas house. I havent been up to their house in like 3 months so it was good stuff man. Then Saturday night we went to the movies with Jenn and Katie. We saw Christmas with the Kranks, haha that was such a funny movie yo! We ran into Britt and Heff at the movies, so we stood with them in line and it saved us about 20 minutes of having to wait in line hehe. Then yesterday Kyle came over for the day again. We had Wendys for lunch and rented movies and had a movie fest all day. It was good stuff. Man I love that boy Soooooo Soooooooo Very Much! I honestly dont know what I would do without that boy. He makes me the happiest girl in the world. I feel soooo lucky to have him. Thinking about it now, I almost lost him last night. Not good. Im such a dummie. I dont know what I would have done if I lost him. I would like die or something :\ Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Spice Girls (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
11:11 am	long time Wow! I haven't written in this thing for sooo long. Almost three months. haha I did it just for you Britty lol. I love you girl. Thanks for being here for me through all this. These last 3ish months have been pretty good. So super glad schools out. I work a lot though, Monday through Friday which is no fun. But on the weekends we go up to my camp which is ALWAYS fun:D The past couple of weeks have been hard. My aunt died Friday, June 25. I miss her so much. She had cancer for a long time. She fought for her life for like 5 months, but her heart couldn't take it anymore. *RIP Jean Nunes 6-25-04 You'll be in our thoughts and prayers forever.* That Saturday the 26, I had my sweet 16 party at my nanas house. I got a lot of neat stuff. It was really really sweet. Good times, good times. but then it all went down hill from there. Josh broke up with me last week. I thought we were fine, but I was ovbiously wrong. He wasn't happy with me. He was interested in someone else. My best friend to be exact. I should hate him, but I don't. I still love him. I know I shouldn't, but I do. He was the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and then he was gone:/ I went up to my camp Saturday and came home yesterday. It was mad fun. I met a boy named Keith. Hes a hottie. Hes really nice and sweet but I'm not interested in him. He'll just be a good friend. I need one of those. That won't let me down or crush me down. Matts been here for like a week, and he's staying for like another month. Matts a nice boy. He's a kewl cuzin. So it'll be kewl. I start hockey camps this week. Power skating with Lori starts on Friday and then the summer Pick-Up League starts saturday morning. Man I sure do miss playing hockey. I miss my friends. I need to hang out with people. Like soon. I haven't seen like anyone. But whats really super super kewl is that CAIT COMES HOME TOMORROW:D:D Shes been in China and Japan for like a month. I miss her like nutttttttttttttttts. It'll be good to have Hammy back:) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 24th, 2004
7:08 am	im back ITALY WAS SOOOOOOO KICK ASS!!!!!! Right now in Italy its 1 in the morning. I woudl be sleeping and dreaming about my day. I haven't had so much fun in my entire life. Italy is the most beautiful place I have ever seen. Ken and I are moving back when we get outta college. I had the best time ever. We saw so many aweosme places and things while we were there. Not to mention all the HOTT ITALIAN BOYS. Sooooo many awesome times; "You know, this gelato can give you a sugar high?" "Dude it's got like 4 times the amount of sugar american ice cream has." "Everytime you say dude, you owe me a dollar!" I really thought Mrs. Baldwin was gonna kill Erica. "Lyla, watch out! Theres a Gypsy over there who might rob us!" Haha Mr. Nailors the shit. Meg, Brit, and I got roses from some HOTT guys! It was great. Haha I loved it. I hung out with Ken most of the time. It was awesome hanging out with him, except for the two times we got lost, but then Ken got us back to where we needed to be so it was fine. I think I really like him, and we talked about everything and no matter what happens we're gonna stay friends so that makes me happy. I wanna go back to Italy NOW!!!!!!! I miss Italy wayyyyy tooooooo much. The only bad thing is that the jet leg is horrible, but it was all worth it! I had the time of my life! (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 15th, 2004
8:59 am	ITALY TODAY!! SPRINGBREAK IN TIALY!!! TODAY WITH TORI AND NICOLE!!!!!!! HAHA   I didn't go to school today cuz my mommy wanted me to stay home and spend the day with her. I'm gonna miss my mommy soooooooo much :( I've never been away from her for more than 3 days, but I was only at a friends house. But I'm gonna have the time of my life! I can't wait. It's gonna be such a super super great time. AHHHHHHHHHHH :D I'm gonna miss all my friends, except for Nicole Tori Meg and Britt cuz they're going to ITALY too :) I'm gonna go take a shower then I'm going to Wendys with my mom to say good-bye to my aunt and get some free lunch since I work there hehe, then my daddys coming here to say good-bye, and then my nana my aunt and my cousins are coming down to go to the school to say good-bye to me when we leave for Logan. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 14th, 2004
8:59 am	TOMORROW!!!!! ITALY TOMORROW WITH TORI AND NICOLE!!!!!! :D I haven't written in this journal thing in like a week so I decided that I would write in it now cuz I won't be able to write in it for two weeks cuz I'm goin to ITALY!!!!! haha This weeks be very hectic, getting everything ready for tomororw. Schools been such a bore, like always though. Its nothing new. lol The only thing I'm not looking forward too is the plane ride. Its like a 15 hour flight but Nicole and I are bringing coloring books and crayons and I'm gonna gonna my cd player and I've got snacks up the awall, so I supose I'll be fine. Im not too keene on flyin though. Ive never gone anywhere past Florida. So I dont know, but I'll be fine. I can't wait. ITALYS gonna kick ass!!!! AHHHHHHHH (Comment on this)
Friday, April 9th, 2004
5:35 pm	Down by the bay...where the watermelons grow...back to my home I dare not go, for if I do...my mother will say "Have u ever seen a whale with a pokadot tale...down by the bay" Down by the bay, where the watermelons grow, back to my home I dare not go, for if I do, my mother will say "Have u ever seen a bee scratching a flee...down by the bay" Down by the bay...where the watermelons grow...back to my home I dare not go, for if I do...my mother will say ''Have you ever seen a dog walking his frog...down by the bay''              haha I looooooove that song! My cousin had her baby last night. Thats neatoooooo. His name is Russell David. Lets see, what did I do today? Hmmmmmmmm I went to school. It was alright. I had a good day, except I had a test in America. I deff bombed it. I was only there for half the chapter and Mr.Beaudoin still made me take it. blahhhhhhhhh I returned my library book that way I could get my report card. I owed 4 freaking bucks. What a ripp-off! I didn't fail ANY classes though:D It made me feel smart lol. Then after school we had Tennis pictures. Haha mine are sooooooo horribbly bad. Then we had practice. It was fun. Tennis practice is ALWAYS fun. Usually its more fun than hockey practice. I love my tennis girls. They're so awesome.  Tomorrow PICKUP-HOCKEY starts:D I haven't played since our scrimmage against Deering. I'm ready to go out and play hockey damn it! Last night we had a meeting for Italy. Its getting sooooooo close. I can't wait to go to Italy and get outta this country. Ahhhhhhhhh Italy for a week and a half with HOTT ITALAIAN BOYS, haha Its a dream come true. 6 DAYS TIL SPRINGBREAK IN ITALY WITH TORI AND NICOLE!!!!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
6:36 pm	blahhhhhhhhh "Slow dancing on the bulivard, in the quite moments while the citys still dark. Sleepwalkin' through the summer rain, in the tired spaces you could hear her name. When she was warm and tender and you held her arms around you, there was nothing but her love and affection. She was crazy for you, now shes part of something that you lost."  -Matchbox Twenty I wish I could honestly look everyone in the eyes and tell them in all honesty that I dont need anyone except myself but that would be farther from the truth than anything. I try and tell myself that, maybe the more I say it the more chance it has to come true? You know the stupid things we make up in our head to secretly give us just a little more hope. Obviously I cant though, but I also cant deal with all the shit people come along with. I dont know, maybe I'm just bitter, maybe I'm just lost. Those are both reasonable possibilities. Whatever it is, it seems to add to the pain inside me. I dont have anyone anymore. I'm loosing everything now. Now that hockeys over I have nothing. My friends are always too busy for me and when they're not busy, I'm busy. I miss my friends. Nothing seems to go right anymore. I miss Cait. I never talk to her anymore. I never really see her anymore either. Its nothing like hockey, where we used to talk alllll the time. We used to beat eachother up on the ice lol but with tennis we don't really have time to talk. Shes going away to college in the fall, so then I'll really never see her :( I wish things were like they used to be. On a happier note, my birthday was Sunday. I'm finally 16 whoooooooo :) I had a good birthday. I wasn't thrilled to go to work on my birthday, but they threw me a party. So that made it better. I loooove the people at my work espically Kristy and Candace. I love them :) I went back to school today. Didn't really want too, but whatever. It made me feel better not just laying around the house sick. School was ok. It could have been better though. It seemed everyone I talked to was in a bad mood. Maybe they were, or maybe its me. But usually if Im in a bad mood, I know I am so I don't know. 8 DAYS TIL ITALY!!!!! SPRINGBREAK IN ITALY IS GONNA KICK ASS!!!!!!!! (3 Comments |Comment on this)